Whoa, I've always honestly thought I was pretty free, but when I sit down and bring the things at the back of my mind to the front...I realise I still have a ton of stuff I need to accomplish, minor or not. Don't think I'll ever get round to doing 'em though.

Had a nice, long talk with Jean today and we whiled away about 4 hours at Tampines for the first time in a long time. I think the last time we did this solo was our second day of school in year 1. Love you Jean!

The past couple of days have been of pure exhaustion from staying up late at night and waking up way too early. It's becoming an increasingly bad habit so I hope I will be able to cure this ASAP. I am beginning to think it is an incurable disease that I simply refuse to turn the lights off and flop down onto bed for good.


Anyway, one thing I must strongly stress today: People really ought to be a lot more tactful of what they say. Not everyone thinks you're funny. And if you think offence will be taken, it most likely will be. Kinda tired of people doing this all the time. Just in case anyone thinks I'm an annoying brat too, I'm trying, ok?




Also, will be seeing these people on Friday again!



And best: No school tomorrow! Shall sleep in, finally. Hehe.



Spent the evening with my favourite boys at Marche and then Coffee Bean(But Taufiq isn't in the picture!). It seems like whenever we meet we do nothing but eat - walk a considerable distance, then settle down to drink/eat again! Hahah but it's good to talk to people who keep me sane all frequently. Can't wait to see you guys on Friday and hehe thanks for agreeing to come to Tampines! Looking forward to Astons.

Chong Aik, "Don't you think everytime the 3 of us are together we are a public nuisance?"


Anyway, I am hooked onto Oh! My Lady. Siwon is incredibly cute! I initially started off watching to support a fellow Suju member since it's his first lead role in 2 years (Hahah I remember him in Battle of Wits but so ahem) but I think the drama's good. Ok so it has all the elements of a typical K-drama but as long as it's light-hearted and takes my mind off a long day it's good enough for me. But the videos take FOREVER to load and I am not gonna download either so if anyone knows a good site to watch please enlighten me.






One week of school has gone by and hmm I could get used to this.

Short update while waiting for Macs to arrive!! ^^

Had to drag my butt down to school today for 4 hours of single camera tutorial but it was well worth it. By far the most interesting subject! Can tell it is gonna be a huge challenge though and its is the sad truth that I fail at handling equipment or machinery of any sort.

Honestly, I only attended 3 days of school this week but it's sure been a little difficult trying to adjust my body clock back to getting up at early and going to bed knowing I can't sleep in. That's a sad sad feeling. Thanks Taufiq for coming down today to accompany me for lunch and congrats on passing BTT!!

And right now I am stuck on Gmarket and tempted to check out my cart. Hmm...

Ok major distraction from clothes - Macs has arrived!! Fast or what???

So it's only Wednesday and my body has already started to fail me...which sucks. On a good note, we moved into lyrical hip hop yesterday during dance which was awesome because it was a really different experience and I love it.

Found out kinda disappointing news today but then again, nothing fazes me anymore. When you're treated like shit by a person over a long period of time you realise that after awhile you're just immune to it. It's just gotta be all about how you see things.

Anyway, Glee was good today, full of angst and drama! Hehe. And Dream Team was on TV so I'll say it was a good TV day.

Just found out I have tutorials on Friday, a full day from 9am - 6pm too. How is anyone supposed to feel?? Urghh.


I wish I was that big event.

It's back2school after two months of holidays and I am kinda filled with dread. Hopefully, things work out well and this sem is a promising one.





Cher, my husband and yours. ^^

Ok, new term ahead. Fighting!

Feels like ages since my last update, but I've been trying to maximise the past couple of days before school starts on Monday. Hmm tonight's the last night I get to stay up late cos the first day of school starts at the glorious time of 9AM. FML, much? Not to mention, 9AM mornings almost every day of the week.

I know a lot of you might not agree but I really wish I am on internship now so that I can just go to work everyday, earn money at the same time while gaining experience, have no time to think and then go home straight to sleep.

Anyway, I've been pretty unlucky these days. Lost my ez-link card yesterday. AND my keys. My mum nearly went mad but I feel really messed up too right! Especially when I've lost it twice in secondary school (Within a week of each other somemore) before. And just a couple of minutes ago I nearly had a heart attack trying to find my contact lens.

Pictures from meeting Cher & gang awhile yesterday while waiting.













They're both now tanned and very fit. Guys, please learn.





Also,



Happy Birthday, Jessica Jung & Daniel Peters!

In a major I-want-to-blog-a-lengthy-post-today mood. Which is good. Because lately I find myself not being able to express myself anymore and I always reasoned it to being due to me being unable to think straight.

My day was pretty screwed up in the beginning because I just don't understand why some people don't keep to their word, or even bother sparing a thought for you. It sucks when you try so hard to please someone - unconditionally, for that matter - and you are practically worthless to him/her still. It's like, I don't ask for much, but the least you could do is show some respect, right?

Makes me wonder all the time why I even bother trying in the first place.

One thing I've learnt, is that it's tiring to keep questioning yourself. To keep trying so hard to find answers and reasons for things that happen. The only way to be truly happy is to accept everything that comes to you. Good or bad, it is gonna come anyway. We laugh, cry, mope and sometimes even dwell on the shitty side longer than we ought to. This is why we need to have that kind of acceptance and acknowledgement to all that happens. I am still trying to fully grasp it because I know once I have, I'm gonna be one step ahead of anyone who ever tries to hurt me.

I know it sounds easy. Like, what is accepting right? I mean, anyone can do that once a fact hits you in the face. Solely based on the reason that well, it happened. But it is never as easy as we think. If it were that easy, we wouldn't have to hurt so much. Wouldn't have to ask. Wouldn't have to cry. Wouldn't have to lie awake countless nights going through conversations that you had with that person and every minor detail and action that they did.

It's about realising one day that you no longer care whatever happens because you are only gonna start giving a damn about yourself that you know you've grown a whole lot stronger.


Moving on to happier things:

Met Chong Aik afterward for lunch and then we headed to town to shop while waiting for Taufiq to knock off from work.



Love his nautica themed getup today. Wish he told me earlier so we could both look like we stepped off a cruise!

Cheered myself up after getting home around 11ish by indulging in non-stop Kpop madness. Or ok, SHINee madness. I even watched an old episode of 娛樂百分百 from last year just to relive their cutest moments. Tomorrow I shall get round to listening to Jamie Cullum and help share the misery of CA - who is going to miss the opportunity to see him live in Singapore in a couple of days!

And I can't believe I am saying this in what seems too soon but...School. Is. Starting. In. Exactly. A. Week's. Time.

What happened to the weeks I have no idea man.

Major mood dampener. Plus I still can't find my timetable yet someone please enlighten me on when it is gonna be out.


I'll be okay I'll be okay I'll be okay.

Actually, it pretty much sucks to be you.

/Edited





Photo credits on picture! I can't really remember where I got this from but whoever you are, you are a saint. ^^

Boy makes my day. Really. I think the musical is running all the way till June! Would give anything to be in front row watching him do his thing. I love you Onew Potter.

You're awesome all by yourself.

Firstly, before I forget!

To-do list:

- Shift documents back to laptop.
- Shift iTunes library onto an external drive.

Lately, I feel like I've really slipped into a zen mode and I'm feeling completely relaxed now - except for the teeny weeny fact that school starts in less than 2 weeks? But hey I've more or less convinced myself to be open to opportunities and stop thinking so much about the people around me and focus on making myself happy for a change.

Anyway, it's high time to start saving again. After today I swear most of my money is spent on food...I just can't stop! Ahahah. Feels like my money is constantly sucked out of my wallet by an unknown force. Trying not to complain about transport money because I still think SG's bus and train transport is reallyyyyy cheap! Hahaha but then again when it all adds up I suppose...

Having a ramly burger for dinner tonight! ^^ (You see, food again. Tsk)

Today I learned to wave.

Tomorrow I shall master it.

1/3 of the year is going by and I'm feeling it...as well as the cheeseburger I ate just now which is now churning in my stomach. I feel sick.

Still, I had the most amazing day with my friends. I still think it's pretty cool how people who are so different in terms of characteristic and personality are able to click and get along well. I love you guys!





It's good to have Lai Han back with us now for 2 weeks. But the truth is babe, it feels like you've never left because your energy still seems to radiate through my laptop screen and on Facebook and everything...hahahahah you are the epitome of impossible.

I've been so active online too often and I often chide myself because I am forever insisting it is an unhealthy habit yet...I think I need a new hobby. And I've been splurging on food like I've got unlimited cash. At least dance tomorrow is gonna get me off my butt.

Anyway, singing then dinner on Friday at Chomps with Lai Han ok guys? Please don't forget to...PLAN.


Oh and I finally sent my laptop for repair today and the screen is...no longer bobbing Plus it was done within a few hours how efficient is efficient! He was so nice too.

Sigh I really need to get round to saving money. But how many times have I said this anyway! Hahahaha.


You know when they say someone gets tired of thinking it's true it just happens. Like your brain refuses to process the same thought over and over again anymore cos it's reached overdraft and you just find that you are finally letting yourself go.

I'm near there.

The truth is, we don't get over the pain we feel from a loved one overtime. We just get used to it.

I am so full now I could pass out..........

Went to Everything With Fries with Chong Aik in the afternoon, then we went to sing...at Teo Heng! Hehe it was fun, and his virgin experience. Might be going again on Monday with Taufiq. Then his parents picked us up and we went to Crystal Jade at East Coast for dinner (Thanks guys!) and now I am......as fat as a pig.

Brain is slow-moving today. Happy Good Friday and an early Easter everyone!

Caught the (yet another) Robert Pattinson film yeterday with Cher after a last minute decision to watch a movie together. At that time, I was seriously just looking for something light-hearted, something fun and easy to digest but the film...well, we were kind of disappointed with it because felt like it was all over the place.

But after I got home and started thinking, I guess the film in a way does allow people to think about some things, just not things I would want to think about now. It was way too melodramatic for me when I was expecting a nice chick flick.

And I swear, Robert Pattinson looks funniest when he is screaming like a lunatic.



Don't forget to remember me.

It is already the 2nd of April today and my heart is still soft. April Fool's day was dull except for Ter insistently trying to sneak in a stupid prank.

So...School's gonna be resuming sooner than we think and then maybe things will start to change again. But it is impossible to try and fight everything we fear when it has not met you in the face yet, the important thing I shall try to do is to accept things for the way they are and take each day at a time.





Miss you already, things are gonna be fine. :)

Whoa, I've always honestly thought I was pretty free, but when I sit down and bring the things at the back of my mind to the front...I realise I still have a ton of stuff I need to accomplish, minor or not. Don't think I'll ever get round to doing 'em though.

Had a nice, long talk with Jean today and we whiled away about 4 hours at Tampines for the first time in a long time. I think the last time we did this solo was our second day of school in year 1. Love you Jean!

The past couple of days have been of pure exhaustion from staying up late at night and waking up way too early. It's becoming an increasingly bad habit so I hope I will be able to cure this ASAP. I am beginning to think it is an incurable disease that I simply refuse to turn the lights off and flop down onto bed for good.


Anyway, one thing I must strongly stress today: People really ought to be a lot more tactful of what they say. Not everyone thinks you're funny. And if you think offence will be taken, it most likely will be. Kinda tired of people doing this all the time. Just in case anyone thinks I'm an annoying brat too, I'm trying, ok?




Also, will be seeing these people on Friday again!



And best: No school tomorrow! Shall sleep in, finally. Hehe.



Spent the evening with my favourite boys at Marche and then Coffee Bean(But Taufiq isn't in the picture!). It seems like whenever we meet we do nothing but eat - walk a considerable distance, then settle down to drink/eat again! Hahah but it's good to talk to people who keep me sane all frequently. Can't wait to see you guys on Friday and hehe thanks for agreeing to come to Tampines! Looking forward to Astons.

Chong Aik, "Don't you think everytime the 3 of us are together we are a public nuisance?"


Anyway, I am hooked onto Oh! My Lady. Siwon is incredibly cute! I initially started off watching to support a fellow Suju member since it's his first lead role in 2 years (Hahah I remember him in Battle of Wits but so ahem) but I think the drama's good. Ok so it has all the elements of a typical K-drama but as long as it's light-hearted and takes my mind off a long day it's good enough for me. But the videos take FOREVER to load and I am not gonna download either so if anyone knows a good site to watch please enlighten me.






One week of school has gone by and hmm I could get used to this.

Short update while waiting for Macs to arrive!! ^^

Had to drag my butt down to school today for 4 hours of single camera tutorial but it was well worth it. By far the most interesting subject! Can tell it is gonna be a huge challenge though and its is the sad truth that I fail at handling equipment or machinery of any sort.

Honestly, I only attended 3 days of school this week but it's sure been a little difficult trying to adjust my body clock back to getting up at early and going to bed knowing I can't sleep in. That's a sad sad feeling. Thanks Taufiq for coming down today to accompany me for lunch and congrats on passing BTT!!

And right now I am stuck on Gmarket and tempted to check out my cart. Hmm...

Ok major distraction from clothes - Macs has arrived!! Fast or what???

So it's only Wednesday and my body has already started to fail me...which sucks. On a good note, we moved into lyrical hip hop yesterday during dance which was awesome because it was a really different experience and I love it.

Found out kinda disappointing news today but then again, nothing fazes me anymore. When you're treated like shit by a person over a long period of time you realise that after awhile you're just immune to it. It's just gotta be all about how you see things.

Anyway, Glee was good today, full of angst and drama! Hehe. And Dream Team was on TV so I'll say it was a good TV day.

Just found out I have tutorials on Friday, a full day from 9am - 6pm too. How is anyone supposed to feel?? Urghh.


I wish I was that big event.

It's back2school after two months of holidays and I am kinda filled with dread. Hopefully, things work out well and this sem is a promising one.





Cher, my husband and yours. ^^

Ok, new term ahead. Fighting!

Feels like ages since my last update, but I've been trying to maximise the past couple of days before school starts on Monday. Hmm tonight's the last night I get to stay up late cos the first day of school starts at the glorious time of 9AM. FML, much? Not to mention, 9AM mornings almost every day of the week.

I know a lot of you might not agree but I really wish I am on internship now so that I can just go to work everyday, earn money at the same time while gaining experience, have no time to think and then go home straight to sleep.

Anyway, I've been pretty unlucky these days. Lost my ez-link card yesterday. AND my keys. My mum nearly went mad but I feel really messed up too right! Especially when I've lost it twice in secondary school (Within a week of each other somemore) before. And just a couple of minutes ago I nearly had a heart attack trying to find my contact lens.

Pictures from meeting Cher & gang awhile yesterday while waiting.













They're both now tanned and very fit. Guys, please learn.





Also,



Happy Birthday, Jessica Jung & Daniel Peters!

In a major I-want-to-blog-a-lengthy-post-today mood. Which is good. Because lately I find myself not being able to express myself anymore and I always reasoned it to being due to me being unable to think straight.

My day was pretty screwed up in the beginning because I just don't understand why some people don't keep to their word, or even bother sparing a thought for you. It sucks when you try so hard to please someone - unconditionally, for that matter - and you are practically worthless to him/her still. It's like, I don't ask for much, but the least you could do is show some respect, right?

Makes me wonder all the time why I even bother trying in the first place.

One thing I've learnt, is that it's tiring to keep questioning yourself. To keep trying so hard to find answers and reasons for things that happen. The only way to be truly happy is to accept everything that comes to you. Good or bad, it is gonna come anyway. We laugh, cry, mope and sometimes even dwell on the shitty side longer than we ought to. This is why we need to have that kind of acceptance and acknowledgement to all that happens. I am still trying to fully grasp it because I know once I have, I'm gonna be one step ahead of anyone who ever tries to hurt me.

I know it sounds easy. Like, what is accepting right? I mean, anyone can do that once a fact hits you in the face. Solely based on the reason that well, it happened. But it is never as easy as we think. If it were that easy, we wouldn't have to hurt so much. Wouldn't have to ask. Wouldn't have to cry. Wouldn't have to lie awake countless nights going through conversations that you had with that person and every minor detail and action that they did.

It's about realising one day that you no longer care whatever happens because you are only gonna start giving a damn about yourself that you know you've grown a whole lot stronger.


Moving on to happier things:

Met Chong Aik afterward for lunch and then we headed to town to shop while waiting for Taufiq to knock off from work.



Love his nautica themed getup today. Wish he told me earlier so we could both look like we stepped off a cruise!

Cheered myself up after getting home around 11ish by indulging in non-stop Kpop madness. Or ok, SHINee madness. I even watched an old episode of 娛樂百分百 from last year just to relive their cutest moments. Tomorrow I shall get round to listening to Jamie Cullum and help share the misery of CA - who is going to miss the opportunity to see him live in Singapore in a couple of days!

And I can't believe I am saying this in what seems too soon but...School. Is. Starting. In. Exactly. A. Week's. Time.

What happened to the weeks I have no idea man.

Major mood dampener. Plus I still can't find my timetable yet someone please enlighten me on when it is gonna be out.


I'll be okay I'll be okay I'll be okay.

Actually, it pretty much sucks to be you.

/Edited





Photo credits on picture! I can't really remember where I got this from but whoever you are, you are a saint. ^^

Boy makes my day. Really. I think the musical is running all the way till June! Would give anything to be in front row watching him do his thing. I love you Onew Potter.

You're awesome all by yourself.

Firstly, before I forget!

To-do list:

- Shift documents back to laptop.
- Shift iTunes library onto an external drive.

Lately, I feel like I've really slipped into a zen mode and I'm feeling completely relaxed now - except for the teeny weeny fact that school starts in less than 2 weeks? But hey I've more or less convinced myself to be open to opportunities and stop thinking so much about the people around me and focus on making myself happy for a change.

Anyway, it's high time to start saving again. After today I swear most of my money is spent on food...I just can't stop! Ahahah. Feels like my money is constantly sucked out of my wallet by an unknown force. Trying not to complain about transport money because I still think SG's bus and train transport is reallyyyyy cheap! Hahaha but then again when it all adds up I suppose...

Having a ramly burger for dinner tonight! ^^ (You see, food again. Tsk)

Today I learned to wave.

Tomorrow I shall master it.

1/3 of the year is going by and I'm feeling it...as well as the cheeseburger I ate just now which is now churning in my stomach. I feel sick.

Still, I had the most amazing day with my friends. I still think it's pretty cool how people who are so different in terms of characteristic and personality are able to click and get along well. I love you guys!





It's good to have Lai Han back with us now for 2 weeks. But the truth is babe, it feels like you've never left because your energy still seems to radiate through my laptop screen and on Facebook and everything...hahahahah you are the epitome of impossible.

I've been so active online too often and I often chide myself because I am forever insisting it is an unhealthy habit yet...I think I need a new hobby. And I've been splurging on food like I've got unlimited cash. At least dance tomorrow is gonna get me off my butt.

Anyway, singing then dinner on Friday at Chomps with Lai Han ok guys? Please don't forget to...PLAN.


Oh and I finally sent my laptop for repair today and the screen is...no longer bobbing Plus it was done within a few hours how efficient is efficient! He was so nice too.

Sigh I really need to get round to saving money. But how many times have I said this anyway! Hahahaha.


You know when they say someone gets tired of thinking it's true it just happens. Like your brain refuses to process the same thought over and over again anymore cos it's reached overdraft and you just find that you are finally letting yourself go.

I'm near there.

The truth is, we don't get over the pain we feel from a loved one overtime. We just get used to it.

I am so full now I could pass out..........

Went to Everything With Fries with Chong Aik in the afternoon, then we went to sing...at Teo Heng! Hehe it was fun, and his virgin experience. Might be going again on Monday with Taufiq. Then his parents picked us up and we went to Crystal Jade at East Coast for dinner (Thanks guys!) and now I am......as fat as a pig.

Brain is slow-moving today. Happy Good Friday and an early Easter everyone!

Caught the (yet another) Robert Pattinson film yeterday with Cher after a last minute decision to watch a movie together. At that time, I was seriously just looking for something light-hearted, something fun and easy to digest but the film...well, we were kind of disappointed with it because felt like it was all over the place.

But after I got home and started thinking, I guess the film in a way does allow people to think about some things, just not things I would want to think about now. It was way too melodramatic for me when I was expecting a nice chick flick.

And I swear, Robert Pattinson looks funniest when he is screaming like a lunatic.



Don't forget to remember me.

It is already the 2nd of April today and my heart is still soft. April Fool's day was dull except for Ter insistently trying to sneak in a stupid prank.

So...School's gonna be resuming sooner than we think and then maybe things will start to change again. But it is impossible to try and fight everything we fear when it has not met you in the face yet, the important thing I shall try to do is to accept things for the way they are and take each day at a time.





Miss you already, things are gonna be fine. :)