I feel...relieved. The first term of year 2 is officially over, BMR is handed up, I'm gonna have a good time tomorrow and I think I've took a great leap in getting on with life.

For so long I have been trying to run after impossible things that I have never taken a step back and tried making myself happy. I think I deserve at least that. It's not gonna be easy but when I have no expectations things seem to get easier. I remember some times in my life previously where I felt like I grew up a lot but when I look back on it now I find it silly. Today, I feel like I've grown up a lot too, and maybe I won't feel this way one day when I look back on it, but for once I would like to credit myself for being strong enough.

Thank you for all the people who never fail to be there for me. I love you guysssss.


When I get to Warwick Avenue
Meet me by the entrance of the tube
We can talk things over a little time
Promise me you won't stand by the light

When I get to Warwick Avenue
Please drop the past and be true
Don't think we're okay just because I'm here
You hurt me bad but I won't shed a tear

I'm leaving you for the last time baby
You think you're loving but you don't love me
I've been confused, out of my mind lately
You think you're loving but I want to be free
Baby, you've hurt me

When I get to Warwick Avenue
We'll spend an hour but no more than two
Our only chance to speak once more
I showed you the answers, now here's the door

When I get to Warwick Avenue
I'll tell you baby that we're through

I'm leaving you for the last time baby
You think you're loving but you don't love me
I've been confused, out of my mind lately
You think you're loving but you don't love me
I want to be free, baby, you've hurt me

All the days spent together, I wished for better
But I didn't want the train to come
Now it's departed, I'm broken hearted
Seems like we never started

All those days spent together when I wished for better
And I didn't want the train to come

I need to sleep really badly and there are so many things to complete but I guess it's really my fault for taking up so many at one shot just so I can keep myself fully occupied. It never really occured to me that I wouldn't be able to handle everything at one go and now I'm getting kind of vexed. Plus I'm so worried sick for a particular someone I hope everything is okay now.

I am not regretting I signed up for the competition but I am regretting there isn't more time to prepare. How am I suppose to do perfect everything in one day? How?????????????

And I've decided I'm not gonna care anymore. Just do whatever you want. I'm out of here.

The truth is, there is an emptiness in me that I'm trying to fill.

FML. Yesterday while on 72 to school I fell asleep and forgot to take my proposal with me after I left the bus...........only realised it when I was halfway to school on 23. And to make things worse submission was at 9am, plus I had a skills test, and it was already 8.45am when I was on the bus!

Can imagine what a mad rush it was for me to try and get everything printed and binded in time. Was SO GLAD I brought my thumbdrive out. Imagine if I hadn't? I would just purely die.

Am so glad things worked out in the end, but I was in a horrendous mood so I skipped school and watched Mubank instead. Suju was awesome!

I kinda wish I had an aim right now, the days just seem lifeless and trudge by.


Interesting posts when my life gets interesting!

Ok so Life's been throwing curveballs at me lately but I refuse to accept anything ridiculous in my life. Been waking up early everyday for school though, which I think is actually pretty good training for me since everyone should know I'm a total sloth. I can't believe it has been a month of year 2. I've been forging better relationships this semester and drifting from others, but my heart and head has remained constant. Sometimes I get tired of being tired but I have been keeping myself busy with school and assignments so it moves me along well. Just ended school an hour ago after finishing singcam with Julia. Never felt prouder to see an assignment done since marketing and medsoc I swear. Oh and last week I got an iPhone, which is really useful for bus rides to nowhere like this. Wish the 4G will magically drop into my hands when it comes out though.

And hey, you. You could be the death of me.

I doubt I can hold out for long seriously.

It's five minutes to the end of someone's birthday and she is really someone extremely important to me. I dare say there is no one else in this world who understands my feelings in the past months better than she does and she is always giving me her endless support and love. She's an amazing character, strong but knows her own weaknesses at the same time, but the best part is she always remains genuine and never does anything that she knows is fake. It takes a lot to have the courage to be yourself and face up to circumstances, say what you mean and have faith in whatever comes next. From that I have learned a lot from her and I love her to bits.



Thank you for being there for me all the time and making me believe that things are always gonna be ok. At the same time, I will look for you and make sure that you have someone to count on whenever you need one!




You don't know how glad I am that things are better now for you and although I know that there are gonna be ups and downs again, I can promise you that I'll always stand by you no matter what because you're the best friend ever. ^^ And Sn better learn to appreciate you more each and every day because he can never find anyone better. Plus, you know I know you are gorgeous!




Happy 19th Birthday Cher, may your days always be happy ones and your nights filled with sweet dreams!


We've been close friends for only a couple of years, I think this is only the 3rd year - but I hope that whether you're 19 or 90 we can still celebrate your birthday together.



I Love you!! And don't kill me for the bigass photos here hehe.

Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit lonely and you're never coming round
Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit tired of listening to the sound of my tears
Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit nervous that the best of all the years have gone by
Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit terrified and then I see the look in your eyes
Turnaround bright eyes, every now and then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, every now and then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you'll only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time (all of the time)
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart

Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit restless and I dream of something wild
Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit helpless and I'm lying like a child in your arms
Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit angry and I know I've got to get out and cry
Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit terrified but then I see the look in you eyes
Turnaround bright eyes, every now and then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, every now and then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you'll only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time (all of the time)
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart

A total eclipse of the heart
A total eclipse of the heart
A total eclipse of the heart
A total eclipse of the heart


It is Mother's Day today and my sister and I bought rosti to prepare for her in the morning because she loves Marche's! Not that I can cook rosti that tastes like the one at Marche but...fingers crossed!

The past two days have been relatively interesting. CCN Day was on Friday (Much prepared the one last year though...) and most of my time was spent running back into Lt 19 where 03 was busking to escape the heat outside. And when I woke up today, my sister shrieked that it was 34 degrees out.

Feel like I am baking.

Anyway, today's an exceptionally amazing day of Love and I am really glad to have my mum with me because she puts up with my nonsense, never forces me to say anything although she is dying to know and she always makes an effort to cheer me up when she knows I'm really, really down. Although I always HAVE to retort because it's become practically like an automatic response, I really don't mean it and from now on I will think before I speak!

LOVE YOU MAXIMUM, MUMMY!!!!

Met Cher yesterday for dinner at Cafe Cartel. The food sucked as usual. I told myself not to eat there anymore but I ALWAYS end up there when there's nothing else available.








Pan fried linguine. Had two recommendations on the menu but that was what made me suspicious in the first place...sigh and it really tasted weird.













Cher, me and guess who?








Had a really good talk with her last night and when I got home I started thinking about what she said. I know I cannot change things but the fact that you never gave solid responses doesn't help me move anywhere. Today I tried asking but you didn't say anything either. But I guess, ultimately, I still want to be appreciated and not try so friggin hard everyday just for that tiny bit of recognition. Do you know how it feels? Maybe one day you will. And maybe this feeling is normal, and that everyone has to feel it to grow up - but how I wish it wasn't you who had to bring me down and make me lose the confidence I took so long to muster.

Nonetheless...

I love you Cher ^^ Thank you. And you are a good friend to me although you don't think so, so don't doubt that!


Got started on assignments today and hmm...I guess once you get started everything isn't so bad anymore. Or not. Still need to find the motivation to see it through.

Gonna watch Glee and then sleep and pray I wake up at 730AM to prepare a Mother's Day breakfast. G'night all!

Researching on good topic ideas for a television script is harder than I thought...Gonna get started tomorrow during breaks

Anyway, this totally made my day! Donghae tweeted this photo about half an hour ago saying goodnight to everyone:




f(X) (Amber), Super Junior (Donghae) and SHINee (Minho) in one photo! I know they are from the same company and all but because they're always busy promoting with their own groups it always makes me happy to see them actually hang out together outside work.


And f(x)'s new song Nu ABO is stuck in my head. I loveloveloveeeeee the catchy tune and sick beats in the song. Amber's rapping and Luna's vocals are amazing in it too, can't wait for the MV!

G'night world.

Can't believe I watched Iron Man 2 today, never expected to catch it but anyway, it was pretty good minus the lousy drones and the even lousier villian (And the super short fights...Gah). 8)



It's not a bad movie, but could be a lot better.

So just like that the weekend passed by. Shopping with Chong Aik and Clarke Quay on Sat, then dance and Iron Man 2 on Sunday. Weekends have been passing by a whole lot faster than they did a month ago, and it's not just because school has started. Anyway, I was damn shocked to hear that people have already started on their assignments so it's time to switch to full gear Rach, stop messing around.

I reallyyyy don't feel like going to school tomorrow. :( Better get some sleep now.


Have a good week, everyone!!

Ate nonstop like a pig today. Something about spending 8 hours in an incredibly cold air-conditioned studio that makes you want to eat like you're storing fats for winter. Like a bear. But the whole week I've been basically scarfing down sandwiches during break and spending my $$ outside of TP. Gah so much for saving.

The past week has been relatively quiet, and I really prefer it to the first week of school, except for the fact that waiting for bus 8 every morning is a pain in the ass and running to mediabiz immediately when the bus stops is no joke. Honestly, it has become my daily workout.

Still, it's been a good 7 days because I've made a lot of new friends and I feel comfortable in a newer environment now. I guess in a way, when you're forced to face changes the only way to look at 'em is positively! So many things and people I miss but so many others I look forward to embracing as well.


Gonna enjoy my weekend with Glee, good friends, bit of shopping and lots of well-deserved sleep. And yeah maybe start working on my assignments.


Love you guys! ^^



Hello May, please be kind to me.

I feel...relieved. The first term of year 2 is officially over, BMR is handed up, I'm gonna have a good time tomorrow and I think I've took a great leap in getting on with life.

For so long I have been trying to run after impossible things that I have never taken a step back and tried making myself happy. I think I deserve at least that. It's not gonna be easy but when I have no expectations things seem to get easier. I remember some times in my life previously where I felt like I grew up a lot but when I look back on it now I find it silly. Today, I feel like I've grown up a lot too, and maybe I won't feel this way one day when I look back on it, but for once I would like to credit myself for being strong enough.

Thank you for all the people who never fail to be there for me. I love you guysssss.


When I get to Warwick Avenue
Meet me by the entrance of the tube
We can talk things over a little time
Promise me you won't stand by the light

When I get to Warwick Avenue
Please drop the past and be true
Don't think we're okay just because I'm here
You hurt me bad but I won't shed a tear

I'm leaving you for the last time baby
You think you're loving but you don't love me
I've been confused, out of my mind lately
You think you're loving but I want to be free
Baby, you've hurt me

When I get to Warwick Avenue
We'll spend an hour but no more than two
Our only chance to speak once more
I showed you the answers, now here's the door

When I get to Warwick Avenue
I'll tell you baby that we're through

I'm leaving you for the last time baby
You think you're loving but you don't love me
I've been confused, out of my mind lately
You think you're loving but you don't love me
I want to be free, baby, you've hurt me

All the days spent together, I wished for better
But I didn't want the train to come
Now it's departed, I'm broken hearted
Seems like we never started

All those days spent together when I wished for better
And I didn't want the train to come

I need to sleep really badly and there are so many things to complete but I guess it's really my fault for taking up so many at one shot just so I can keep myself fully occupied. It never really occured to me that I wouldn't be able to handle everything at one go and now I'm getting kind of vexed. Plus I'm so worried sick for a particular someone I hope everything is okay now.

I am not regretting I signed up for the competition but I am regretting there isn't more time to prepare. How am I suppose to do perfect everything in one day? How?????????????

And I've decided I'm not gonna care anymore. Just do whatever you want. I'm out of here.

The truth is, there is an emptiness in me that I'm trying to fill.

FML. Yesterday while on 72 to school I fell asleep and forgot to take my proposal with me after I left the bus...........only realised it when I was halfway to school on 23. And to make things worse submission was at 9am, plus I had a skills test, and it was already 8.45am when I was on the bus!

Can imagine what a mad rush it was for me to try and get everything printed and binded in time. Was SO GLAD I brought my thumbdrive out. Imagine if I hadn't? I would just purely die.

Am so glad things worked out in the end, but I was in a horrendous mood so I skipped school and watched Mubank instead. Suju was awesome!

I kinda wish I had an aim right now, the days just seem lifeless and trudge by.


Interesting posts when my life gets interesting!

Ok so Life's been throwing curveballs at me lately but I refuse to accept anything ridiculous in my life. Been waking up early everyday for school though, which I think is actually pretty good training for me since everyone should know I'm a total sloth. I can't believe it has been a month of year 2. I've been forging better relationships this semester and drifting from others, but my heart and head has remained constant. Sometimes I get tired of being tired but I have been keeping myself busy with school and assignments so it moves me along well. Just ended school an hour ago after finishing singcam with Julia. Never felt prouder to see an assignment done since marketing and medsoc I swear. Oh and last week I got an iPhone, which is really useful for bus rides to nowhere like this. Wish the 4G will magically drop into my hands when it comes out though.

And hey, you. You could be the death of me.

I doubt I can hold out for long seriously.

It's five minutes to the end of someone's birthday and she is really someone extremely important to me. I dare say there is no one else in this world who understands my feelings in the past months better than she does and she is always giving me her endless support and love. She's an amazing character, strong but knows her own weaknesses at the same time, but the best part is she always remains genuine and never does anything that she knows is fake. It takes a lot to have the courage to be yourself and face up to circumstances, say what you mean and have faith in whatever comes next. From that I have learned a lot from her and I love her to bits.



Thank you for being there for me all the time and making me believe that things are always gonna be ok. At the same time, I will look for you and make sure that you have someone to count on whenever you need one!




You don't know how glad I am that things are better now for you and although I know that there are gonna be ups and downs again, I can promise you that I'll always stand by you no matter what because you're the best friend ever. ^^ And Sn better learn to appreciate you more each and every day because he can never find anyone better. Plus, you know I know you are gorgeous!




Happy 19th Birthday Cher, may your days always be happy ones and your nights filled with sweet dreams!


We've been close friends for only a couple of years, I think this is only the 3rd year - but I hope that whether you're 19 or 90 we can still celebrate your birthday together.



I Love you!! And don't kill me for the bigass photos here hehe.

Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit lonely and you're never coming round
Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit tired of listening to the sound of my tears
Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit nervous that the best of all the years have gone by
Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit terrified and then I see the look in your eyes
Turnaround bright eyes, every now and then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, every now and then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you'll only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time (all of the time)
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart

Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit restless and I dream of something wild
Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit helpless and I'm lying like a child in your arms
Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit angry and I know I've got to get out and cry
Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit terrified but then I see the look in you eyes
Turnaround bright eyes, every now and then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, every now and then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you'll only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time (all of the time)
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart

A total eclipse of the heart
A total eclipse of the heart
A total eclipse of the heart
A total eclipse of the heart


It is Mother's Day today and my sister and I bought rosti to prepare for her in the morning because she loves Marche's! Not that I can cook rosti that tastes like the one at Marche but...fingers crossed!

The past two days have been relatively interesting. CCN Day was on Friday (Much prepared the one last year though...) and most of my time was spent running back into Lt 19 where 03 was busking to escape the heat outside. And when I woke up today, my sister shrieked that it was 34 degrees out.

Feel like I am baking.

Anyway, today's an exceptionally amazing day of Love and I am really glad to have my mum with me because she puts up with my nonsense, never forces me to say anything although she is dying to know and she always makes an effort to cheer me up when she knows I'm really, really down. Although I always HAVE to retort because it's become practically like an automatic response, I really don't mean it and from now on I will think before I speak!

LOVE YOU MAXIMUM, MUMMY!!!!

Met Cher yesterday for dinner at Cafe Cartel. The food sucked as usual. I told myself not to eat there anymore but I ALWAYS end up there when there's nothing else available.








Pan fried linguine. Had two recommendations on the menu but that was what made me suspicious in the first place...sigh and it really tasted weird.













Cher, me and guess who?








Had a really good talk with her last night and when I got home I started thinking about what she said. I know I cannot change things but the fact that you never gave solid responses doesn't help me move anywhere. Today I tried asking but you didn't say anything either. But I guess, ultimately, I still want to be appreciated and not try so friggin hard everyday just for that tiny bit of recognition. Do you know how it feels? Maybe one day you will. And maybe this feeling is normal, and that everyone has to feel it to grow up - but how I wish it wasn't you who had to bring me down and make me lose the confidence I took so long to muster.

Nonetheless...

I love you Cher ^^ Thank you. And you are a good friend to me although you don't think so, so don't doubt that!


Got started on assignments today and hmm...I guess once you get started everything isn't so bad anymore. Or not. Still need to find the motivation to see it through.

Gonna watch Glee and then sleep and pray I wake up at 730AM to prepare a Mother's Day breakfast. G'night all!

Researching on good topic ideas for a television script is harder than I thought...Gonna get started tomorrow during breaks

Anyway, this totally made my day! Donghae tweeted this photo about half an hour ago saying goodnight to everyone:




f(X) (Amber), Super Junior (Donghae) and SHINee (Minho) in one photo! I know they are from the same company and all but because they're always busy promoting with their own groups it always makes me happy to see them actually hang out together outside work.


And f(x)'s new song Nu ABO is stuck in my head. I loveloveloveeeeee the catchy tune and sick beats in the song. Amber's rapping and Luna's vocals are amazing in it too, can't wait for the MV!

G'night world.

Can't believe I watched Iron Man 2 today, never expected to catch it but anyway, it was pretty good minus the lousy drones and the even lousier villian (And the super short fights...Gah). 8)



It's not a bad movie, but could be a lot better.

So just like that the weekend passed by. Shopping with Chong Aik and Clarke Quay on Sat, then dance and Iron Man 2 on Sunday. Weekends have been passing by a whole lot faster than they did a month ago, and it's not just because school has started. Anyway, I was damn shocked to hear that people have already started on their assignments so it's time to switch to full gear Rach, stop messing around.

I reallyyyy don't feel like going to school tomorrow. :( Better get some sleep now.


Have a good week, everyone!!

Ate nonstop like a pig today. Something about spending 8 hours in an incredibly cold air-conditioned studio that makes you want to eat like you're storing fats for winter. Like a bear. But the whole week I've been basically scarfing down sandwiches during break and spending my $$ outside of TP. Gah so much for saving.

The past week has been relatively quiet, and I really prefer it to the first week of school, except for the fact that waiting for bus 8 every morning is a pain in the ass and running to mediabiz immediately when the bus stops is no joke. Honestly, it has become my daily workout.

Still, it's been a good 7 days because I've made a lot of new friends and I feel comfortable in a newer environment now. I guess in a way, when you're forced to face changes the only way to look at 'em is positively! So many things and people I miss but so many others I look forward to embracing as well.


Gonna enjoy my weekend with Glee, good friends, bit of shopping and lots of well-deserved sleep. And yeah maybe start working on my assignments.


Love you guys! ^^



Hello May, please be kind to me.